Posts Tagged ‘body image’

100 Pounds – Such a Tease…

February 2, 2013 2 comments
Looking into the distance - pondering how CLOSE I am to that 100 pound mark! :-)

Looking into the distance – pondering how CLOSE I am to that 100 pound mark! ūüôā

Well yesterday was weekly weigh-in day, and I posted a loss, albeit a small one, from last week. ¬†I weighed in at 217.4 pounds yesterday. ¬†That’s down .4 pounds from last week, and still leaves me 2.4 elusive pounds shy of the century mark and losing 100 pounds! ¬†I can taste that victory, and yes, it’s a measly couple of pounds, but the psychological significance of having lost¬†100 pounds is really huge. ¬† I remember when I first started this journey a few years ago, I’d watch the people on the Today show, or read the success stories in the Atlanta Journal-Constitution who had lost 100 pounds, and for the first time, I thought, “They’re no different than me. ¬†I can do this, too!”

And I almost have achieved that goal! ¬†A. L. M. O. S. T….. ¬†I was kind of disappointed this week because I did really well with exercise again for the first time in a long time, and I was good with my food. ¬†My nutritionist reminded me yesterday when I told her rather disappointedly about my small loss that when you first begin exercise (which for all intents and purposes, this week was a restart), your muscles retain water, and the loss may not come immediately. ¬†So busting through this plateau will take a little bit yet.

What’s keeping me going until I hit this huge milestone along my road to a final goal weight are the changes I’ve undergone. ¬†Health, energy, and petty as it may seem, appearance. ¬†I actually really like the way I look now! ¬†I got a haircut this morning and snapped a photo with my phone today to see it from the side (see above). ¬†A few years (or even a few months) ago, a side shot of my face/head would’ve been something that made me cringe and reflexively delete the photo. ¬†But when I saw this one, I had to stop for a minute. ¬†It didn’t even look like me! ¬†I didn’t have a ridiculous double (or triple chin), there was no fat roll on the back of my head, and damn if I didn’t even see some of the muscles/tendons in my neck! ¬†I actually thought I looked…well…kinda cute! ¬†So that satisfaction – knowing I’ve changed my life for the better – that’s what’s going to propel me through until I’ve lost 100 pounds (hopefully very soon!), and then past that, to get below 200 pounds, and ultimately to reach a good final goal weight and maintain it with a healthy lifestyle that never stops.


Celebrating Victories – Big Apple Style…

December 12, 2012 1 comment
2012 Rockefeller Center Tree

2012 Rockefeller Center Tree

This past weekend, I took the trip I’ve been talking about and anticipating for months – a trip to New York to see Cyndi Lauper and friends in a holiday concert to benefit homeless lesbian, gay, bisexual, and transgendered youth. ¬†It. ¬†Was. ¬†Amazing. ¬†And I’ll tell you all about it, but first of all, the trip started as I left home for work on Friday morning, and weighing in that morning was a great way to kick off a weekend of traveling! ¬†I weighed in at 223.8, a FIVE POUND loss from the prior week!!! ¬†That’s a 34.8 pound weight loss since July, and about 91 pounds down from my highest weight a few years back!!! ¬†This is the lightest I’ve ever been as an adult. ¬†It’s really pretty amazing. ¬†I’m beginning to really like my body, and see myself as sexy and attractive! ¬†That’s huge progress for me, as viewing yourself as a normal size person takes a lot of mental work! ¬†It’s been a shift that’s happened over time, along with confidence being built up in other areas of my life, as well. ¬†Which leads me back to New York… Read more…

True Colors: Overcoming Body Image and Non-Scale Victories!

October 27, 2012 Comments off

Writing this morning from my brand new, super speedy laptop! ¬†Just call me flash. ¬†Wait…I’m not sure I like the various connotations that could have… ¬†Oh well, nevermind. ¬†But it is so nice to be able to log in and write a blog entry without waiting 25 minutes for the computer to boot up…I probably should have replaced my seven year old dinosaur computer years ago. ¬†The old one was so bad that I updated my blog from my iPhone the last two weeks, so those posts were short and to the point to say the least. ¬†So let’s catch up a little bit.

First, yesterday was my weekly weigh in, and after a week of stasis, the loss is picking up again! ¬†230.8 pounds this week!!! ¬†That’s a 2.0 pound lost from a week ago, 27.8 pounds down from where I started this time around in July, and about 84 pounds from my estimated highest weight of 315 sometime in 2007-08. ¬†I will say, loss has gotten a little more difficult lately. ¬†My nutrition is still good, but I’m getting down to that point where exercise is becoming more and more important. ¬†That’s been tricky with the sun going down earlier, and my being an evening exerciser. ¬†I may end up having to join a gym soon, and that’s something that doesn’t really appeal to me, but I do want to keep up with my weight loss, so I’ll do what I have to when it gets to that. ¬†My next goal is to reach 215 pounds, hopefully by New Year’s, which will mark 100 pounds lost. ¬†It will be hard work, but I’m confident I can reach that goal.

So on various weight loss blogs and such, you’ll often hear the term “Non-Scale Victory” or NSV. ¬†I think NSV’s represent the stuff of living, not just the numerical progress you’re making, but realizing the reasons¬†why you’re working so hard to transform your life. ¬†This past week, I’ve had a couple of significant NSV’s. ¬†The most simple one was this morning. ¬†I was Read more…