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Doubling Down on Dedication…and Fiber…

January 30, 2013 1 comment

Wow – it’s been a hot minute since I’ve written a blog post!  I kind of noticed the same pattern when I lost my first big chunk of weight back in 2010.  Once I got my weight down a good bit, the time I had devoted to blogging became devoted more and more to living life to the fullest!  And that’s happened this time around, too, to some extent.  My goal since July has really been to blog about once a week, as opposed to a few times a week, so blogging hasn’t really made that big of a dent in  my time.  Meaning, I really have no excuse to have been MIA for the past month.

Rest assured, I’ve been keeping up with my healthy diet!  Exercise has been trickier in the winter, though I’m starting to break through with that, too.  Details on all that and more, but first…  a quick primer to bring you up to date on my last few weeks’ weigh-ins.  When I weighed in on December 31, 2012 – the last time I posted to the blog, I was at 221.8, and I was thrilled!  But my loss has continued, even if the pace has slowed a bit.  Here are my weights from my weekly Friday weigh-ins this year, with the loss from the week before, and my total loss from 315, my estimated highest weight:

1/4/13:     220.5 / -3.9wk / -94.5tot

1/11/13:    217.4 / -3.1wk / -97.6tot

1/18/13:    218.5 / +1.1wk / -96.6tot

1/25/13:    217.8 / -0.7wk / -97.3tot

So you can see I had a significant loss at the beginning of the month, and that’s been followed by what I would describe as a plateau.  My weight since mid-month has really hovered within the 217.5-218.5 range.  That’s not bad at all, if I were looking to maintain that weight, but I still have more losing to do!!!  So what explains that plateau?  A couple of different things, I think.

First, I made a couple of changes to my diet.  I got a great deal on KIND bars, and I began to eat them as an afternoon snack in place of my typical apple and cheese.  I also heard about a new breakfast biscuit called Belvita.  It’s delicious, and I guess it’s a good option if you’re on the go and just need to grab something to tide you over.  But at 230 calories a packet, it’s pretty high calorie compared to my normal single packet of plain oatmeal and an apple.  I was combining it with an apple or banana, and a Danactive yogurt…  Lots more calories.  So I cut the fruit, and it was more in line with my calorie expectations for myself (and probably a little lower in sugar, too).

View from the top of Stone Mountain.  In the distance you can see the Atlanta skyline!

View from the top of Stone Mountain. In the distance you can see the Atlanta skyline!

But I think something else happened – without those fruits in my diet – I was losing a good bit of fiber.  I ended up – get ready – constipated.  I’m nothing if not honest.  And quite frankly I’ve been struggling with it for the past couple of weeks.  I haven’t been irregular since childhood, so this was a shock to my system.  The lack of exercise probably contributed, as well.  So I took matters into my own hands this week.  I’ve hit exercise hard.  I started by climbing Atlanta’s Stone Mountain for the past two weekends in a row (the view at the top, on the left, is spectacular)!  It feels awesome to be able to do this spur of the moment.  A few years ago, I couldn’t have.  I would’ve ended up having to be rescued as I clung to a rogue mountaintop pine tree, whimpering softly (okay maybe not that bad – but it would’ve been hell).  This week, I’ve also doubled down on my efforts at also getting in two weekday jogs at Piedmont Park!  One was after work yesterday (as it’s now staying light just long enough to do that without almost certainly being mugged), and another was today.  There was horrific weather here today (tornadoes in other parts of northern Georgia), but once that threat passed, I decided that since I had taken the day off work today anyway and didn’t need to look cute for anything, I’d go for a run in the rain.  I felt bad-ass!  That’s how I’m gonna bust this plateau, baby!!!  I actually felt great, but I guess my face tells on me being a little cold and wet (see below right).  Between that and modifying my diet to make sure I’m adding back in lots of fiber-rich fruits and vegetables, you’ll be happy to know, the irregularity seems to be gone.  I know I’m happy.  🙂  And I’m hopeful that this week’s weigh-in may bring me back in line for a serious losing trend that will get me to 215 and 100 pounds lost soon!!!

A rainy run at Piedmont Park - sitting on the sidelines for a little rain isn't going to bust this plateau!

A rainy run at Piedmont Park – sitting on the sidelines for a little rain isn’t going to bust this plateau!

One other important development this month is that I had my annual physical.  My blood pressure has been normal since I started losing weight a couple of years ago, but last year, my cholesterol was borderline high (at 202), and my triglycerides were definitely high.  This year, my triglycerides were perfectly normal, and my cholesterol was a really healthy 158!  With HDL and LDL levels also being really good!!!  That was exciting to know.  And my insulin resistance that I was struggling with when I was over 300 is now completely resolved.  To the point we don’t even need to test my A1c levels again, according to my doctor!!!

So that’s a quick catch up from the past month.  I’m going to get back on board with weekly posts – I promise!  And this weekend, be on the lookout for a delish recipe for roasted butternut squash that I came up with this past week!  It’s a wonderful, easy source of fiber, and tastes like an absolute treat!

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Ending the Year by Closing a Chapter

December 31, 2012 Comments off
My "too big" wardrobe - ready for donation to a charity helping Atlanta's LGBT youth.

My “too big” wardrobe – ready for donation to a charity helping Atlanta’s LGBT youth.

Today was the greatest day yet of this weight loss journey.  To begin, I weighed this morning, as I do everyday, and I was at my lowest weight yet of my adult life: 221.8 pounds.  A 93+ pound loss from my highest weight of about 315!!!  It’s not an “official” Friday weigh-in for me, but I’ll take it.  So I decided that as I finish up my holiday vacation from work, I’d use part of the day to do something I’ve known for a while now that I should do – clean out my closet and dresser.

I knew I needed to do this for a couple of reasons.  First, I needed to get the clothes that I wore t my higher weights out of my house.  As long as they’re available to me, there is a safety net of sorts in my mind.  The idea that if I were to balloon back up to a higher weight, at least it wouldn’t require great expense, as I’d have a built-in wardrobe to fall back on.  This…is incredibly flawed thinking.  Getting rid of that safety net of “fat clothes” is an acknowledgement and proclamation to yourself that you HAVE changed your life, and that change is here to stay.  NO TURNING BACK!

The other reason I needed to do this is that I had a ton of perfectly good, and actually really nice, clothes that were going unused.  There are plenty of people out there who are on hard times for one reason or another that could be putting these clothes to use as opposed to having them hang in my closet as an unhealthy mental block to my total reconstruction.  As I began trying everything on and sorting everything in piles of what to donate and what to keep, I was overtaken with a completely irrational fear.  What if I were to lose my job/get sick/otherwise fall on hard times and end up homeless?  I might need these clothes, if for no other reason than to use as blankets to keep myself alive when I would undoubtedly be living in a cardboard box under the interstate with all my belongings in a hijacked shopping cart!

Again…flawed thinking.  I mean, Read more…

Top 10 Body Changes to Get Me Through the Holidays

December 29, 2012 Comments off

So I have a couple of weeks of catching up to do with regards to reporting my weigh-ins.  In order to do it, I’ve returned to the bestest coffee shop in all the land, which I’ve often blogged from and about before.  Ground zero for my studying for the bar exam (and hence making a major career change), coming out of the closet, and various other life events.  I couldn’t take a week’s vacation and note spend some time here!  The news is good overall, and I’m proud of getting through the holidays without a complete debacle or meltdown of efforts.  In fact, the way I’ve been handling this year’s holidays makes me think that maybe, just maybe, I’ve finally made the switch in my head from being on a diet/eating plan/program to living a healthier lifestyle.

All that said, the weeks surrounding Christmas have not been a time for continued weight loss, and perhaps that’s not what I should have expected this time of year.  On the Friday before Christmas, I weighed in at Read more…

Celebrating Victories – Big Apple Style…

December 12, 2012 1 comment
2012 Rockefeller Center Tree

2012 Rockefeller Center Tree

This past weekend, I took the trip I’ve been talking about and anticipating for months – a trip to New York to see Cyndi Lauper and friends in a holiday concert to benefit homeless lesbian, gay, bisexual, and transgendered youth.  It.  Was.  Amazing.  And I’ll tell you all about it, but first of all, the trip started as I left home for work on Friday morning, and weighing in that morning was a great way to kick off a weekend of traveling!  I weighed in at 223.8, a FIVE POUND loss from the prior week!!!  That’s a 34.8 pound weight loss since July, and about 91 pounds down from my highest weight a few years back!!!  This is the lightest I’ve ever been as an adult.  It’s really pretty amazing.  I’m beginning to really like my body, and see myself as sexy and attractive!  That’s huge progress for me, as viewing yourself as a normal size person takes a lot of mental work!  It’s been a shift that’s happened over time, along with confidence being built up in other areas of my life, as well.  Which leads me back to New York… Read more…

Minor Setbacks :-/ and Lentil Soup :-)

December 2, 2012 1 comment
French Lentil Soup with Multi-Grain French Bread and Steamed Green Beans

French Lentil Soup with Multi-Grain French Bread and Steamed Green Beans

My weigh-in this past Friday was my first post-Thanksgiving, and it didn’t go quite how I would’ve liked.  I didn’t gain a ridiculous amount of weight, but I did gain.  I weighed in at 228.8 pounds on Friday, up 1.7 pounds from my last weigh in on Thanksgiving morning.  Honestly, it’s not that bad.  I had hoped to keep my weight steady, and maybe even post a modest loss, but gaining less than 2 pounds and staying below 230 really isn’t terrible.  It’s no excuse, but I also wrenched my back on the Friday after Thanksgiving, which hindered my exercise going forward.  I went for a walk today for the first time since last Saturday, and I hated not being able to jog, and the fact that my back hurt when I finished.  This too shall pass, though!

I should really be doubling down on nutrition, with exercise being problematic right now, but this weekend wasn’t great with that either.  I didn’t binge or eat too much or anything like that.  I just didn’t make the most clean choices.  A new relationship ended, I got a migraine headache, and I just wasn’t as careful with my food as I should be.  I went for Chinese last night (yeah – I had an eggroll…), and a greasy spoon today after church for eggs, bacon, hashbrowns, and a pancake.  Portions were modest, but still…  So this afternoon and evening I tried to get clean with my eating again.  My snack was a banana and pecans, and my dinner?  Scratch made lentil soup…mmmmmmm…  🙂

I’ve mentioned Rachel Brandeis, my dietitian, here before.  She is all kinds of awesome, and I honestly don’t know where I’d be without her.  Scratch that – I do know where I’d be.  Either a) two years post bariatric surgery and possibly still not knowing how to eat, or b) dead or nearly dead.  I’m so glad I ended up doing all this without surgery, and just by learning to eat right and exercise!  Anyway, click Rachel’s name above to visit her website and get her help if you’re an Atlanta local.  I promise you won’t regret it.  Even if you don’t feel like you need a consult, you can look her up and follow her on Facebook for great tips and recipes.

Facebook is where Rachel linked to this recipe on Epicurious.com for French Lentil Soup that intrigued me.  It’s so simple.  I really wasn’t sure it would taste that good, but Read more…

Emotional Eating: How to Not Devour That Bag of Uneaten Candy Corn

November 27, 2012 2 comments

First things first, it’s been a couple of weeks since I’ve checked in here.  It’s actually been a good couple of weeks on the weight loss front!  On Friday, November 16, I weighed in at 228.0 pounds, which was a 1.3 pound loss from the week prior.  Last week, I decided to move my weigh in up to Thanksgiving morning instead of Friday morning, so that I wouldn’t get discouraged by weighing in after the Thanksgiving meal.  That weigh in on Thursday, 11/22 was 227.1 pounds, which is .9 pounds less than the week before.  So 2.2 pounds lost over the last couple of weeks!  Not bad.

I’ll be honest, I don’t expect to post a loss this week.  Thanksgiving was a day of indulgence.  I wasn’t so bad with the meal, but our family sweet potato casserole recipe is like crack – and like the addict that I am, I ate way too much of it throughout the day.  I wish my body weren’t so sensitive to one day of high calorie eating, but it is.  I’m already up from last week (yes – I weigh every day, “official” weigh in day or not), and I threw my back out on Friday, so exercise, while I’ve tried to keep it up, has been lacking.  That concerns me a bit since exercise is already a struggle this time of year, but it is what it is.

And that leads me to tonight, sitting here after midnight, writing this blog while I drink a diet soda.  Why am I doing this?  Because frankly, this is what’s keeping me from burying my face in the leftover bag of candy corn from the fall holidays that’s in my pantry and hasn’t been eaten yet.  You see, I’m an emotional eater.  I don’t do drugs, I don’t smoke, I don’t drink to excess, and I don’t gamble.  The fact of the matter is, I’m not even the least bit tempted by those things, no matter how bad my day or how much stress I’m under.  BUT…  find me at home on a Monday evening after a stressful day returning to work after a holiday break, with my back hurting still from injuring it last week, and combine that with the butterflies and such that go along with the beginnings of a new, albeit seemingly fantastic, relationship, and I just want to inhale that damn candy corn like a human dustbuster.

Since re-starting my weight loss journey in July, I really haven’t been tempted to eat emotionally.  This is a huge sign of progress for me, since I used food to numb emotion for decades.  But as my night began to wind down tonight, I felt that familiar longing for the first time in a long while.  My new beau had been over for dinner and left to go home,and next thing I knew, my mind started wandering to how cruddy going back to work from the holiday had been, to how my back hurt when I moved, and to other various and sundry anxieties – both good and bad.  Emotional eaters use food like an alcoholic uses whiskey – to numb emotions, good and bad.  And all of a sudden, I really wanted to raid my pantry and fridge…particularly for that leftover bag of hardened, sugary candy corn.  So what’s the difference?  What stopped me? Read more…

‘Tis the Season: Five Tips for Taming Holiday Weight Gain

November 11, 2012 Comments off

I’m sitting here as I type watching a Hallmark Christmas movie.  Yes, it’s saccharin and laden with fantasy…and I love it.  These will become a weekend staple for the next six weeks or so.  And as the holidays are about to kick into high gear, it’s time to strategize for all the amazing, rich food that will be tempting us.  But first, an update on the last week…

A week ago, I weighed in at 232.1 pounds.  This was a gain over the week before, and honestly for the few weeks prior, I had kind of felt like I was at a bit of a plateau.  Exercise has definitely become more challenging with the time change, and I do plan to break down and join a gym soon.  But this week, I was back on track!  I weighed in at 229.3!!!  That’s a 2.8 pound loss from last week, and a 29.6 pound loss from when I re-started my weight loss efforts in July.  From my all time high of 315, it’s about an 86 pound loss now!  Being out of the 230’s is truly uncharted territory for me…  I think it’s been pre-high school since I’ve been this light!  That’s great motivation!!!

My goal is to reach 215 pounds by New Year’s.  That would be a 100 pound loss for me.  That’s about 14 more pounds in the next 7 weeks, or a two-pound a week loss.  With Thanksgiving and Christmas thrown in, along with my trip to New York in early December for the Cyndi Lauper Holiday concert, and the various parties I’ll be attending, I will NOT be beating myself up if I don’t reach my goal exactly on time.  However, I do want to ensure that I continue a downward trend, and certainly not gain any weight.  So here’s how I’m planning to do that – with my five tips for taming holiday weight gain: Read more…