Posts Tagged ‘today’

Ending the Year by Closing a Chapter

December 31, 2012 Comments off
My "too big" wardrobe - ready for donation to a charity helping Atlanta's LGBT youth.

My “too big” wardrobe – ready for donation to a charity helping Atlanta’s LGBT youth.

Today was the greatest day yet of this weight loss journey.  To begin, I weighed this morning, as I do everyday, and I was at my lowest weight yet of my adult life: 221.8 pounds.  A 93+ pound loss from my highest weight of about 315!!!  It’s not an “official” Friday weigh-in for me, but I’ll take it.  So I decided that as I finish up my holiday vacation from work, I’d use part of the day to do something I’ve known for a while now that I should do – clean out my closet and dresser.

I knew I needed to do this for a couple of reasons.  First, I needed to get the clothes that I wore t my higher weights out of my house.  As long as they’re available to me, there is a safety net of sorts in my mind.  The idea that if I were to balloon back up to a higher weight, at least it wouldn’t require great expense, as I’d have a built-in wardrobe to fall back on.  This…is incredibly flawed thinking.  Getting rid of that safety net of “fat clothes” is an acknowledgement and proclamation to yourself that you HAVE changed your life, and that change is here to stay.  NO TURNING BACK!

The other reason I needed to do this is that I had a ton of perfectly good, and actually really nice, clothes that were going unused.  There are plenty of people out there who are on hard times for one reason or another that could be putting these clothes to use as opposed to having them hang in my closet as an unhealthy mental block to my total reconstruction.  As I began trying everything on and sorting everything in piles of what to donate and what to keep, I was overtaken with a completely irrational fear.  What if I were to lose my job/get sick/otherwise fall on hard times and end up homeless?  I might need these clothes, if for no other reason than to use as blankets to keep myself alive when I would undoubtedly be living in a cardboard box under the interstate with all my belongings in a hijacked shopping cart!

Again…flawed thinking.  I mean, Read more…


Finding Inspiration

July 16, 2012 Comments off

One important piece of my weight loss journey, that I must admit has fallen by the wayside in recent months, is finding some inspiration that I can, in fact, do this.  The best way to prove to myself that I can lose this weight and live a healthy life, is to look at people who have already walked this path.  Reading other blogs is a great way to stay on track, and watching the Today Show’s weekly “Joy Fit Club” where people have lost more than 100 pounds is also great inspiration.  My favorite way to do that this summer is by watching Extreme Makeover: Weight Loss Edition on ABC.

If you haven’t seen this show before, Chris Powell, my future husband a trainer with more compassion and caring than anyone I have ever seen, takes someone who is morbidly obese, and transforms their mind and body over a full year.  Chris, in addition to being ridiculously good looking, has an absolute heart of gold and infectious spirit.  Yes, I have a bit of a crush, and I was devastated to learn he is married with children.  Sigh…oh well.

What’s truly amazing, though, is seeing someone who Read more…

Weekly Weigh-In #44: Live Life Today!

August 28, 2010 13 comments

Okay, so this post is going to seem a bit all over the place, but it really all comes down to the same premise, so I’ll do my best to tie it all together.  First of all, today was my 44th weekly weigh in, and I came in at 235.2 pounds!!!  That’s a 2.9 pound loss from last week, and I’ve now lost 72.8 pounds total from my starting weight of 308 pounds on October 30th of last year.  Yay.  Woo-hoo.  Go me.  Now down to business.

Not that I’m minimizing my loss this week, but here’s the deal: I know how to lose weight.  I’ve been doing it consistently for nearly a year now.  This journey is about weight loss.  But it’s also about getting healthy and fit.  And exercise is a big part of that; it’s not all about nutrition.  While I was studying for the bar exam, I also ended up experiencing a layoff.  That’s something I haven’t yet talked about on this blog, but there you have it.  It’s pretty common, unfortunately, in this economy, and between that and trying to get on track for the bar exam, I completely lost my exercise mojo.  I’d get in a stray run every now and then – maybe once a week at most – but nothing consistent.  My awesome trainer and nutritionist started encouraging me after the bar to just get back into it, and it brought back the old Nike slogan, “Just Do It!,” which I love for all kinds of reasons.  In fact, I remembered this Nike commercial this past week as I was trying to get back into gear with exercise:

Don’t you love that?!?  Seriously, what was I waiting for?  I lost this weight for a reason – to be able to do things I couldn’t before, to be healthier, to be more confident, to enjoy my life more, to enjoy my family and friends more, to be the person I always knew I could be if I only had the confidence to move forward.  And by putting exercise on hold because of these other circumstances that had me stressed out, I’d done the new me (that had always been there, just waiting to get out) a disservice.

So yesterday, I began Read more…