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Should Size Matter? – Not the Same Person, but Human All the Same

May 13, 2014 6 comments
Ready to Ride! In a size medium shirt!!!

Before my horseback ride on the beach in Amelia Island!

Many of you who followed this blog when I was in the heyday of my weight loss also know me in real life or via social media, so we’ve continued to stay in touch, even though I haven’t been blogging here since I hit 100 pounds lost.  It struck me though that there may be a few people who only followed the blog, and I thought I’d give you a brief update.  My weight loss continued past the 100 pounds, and right now I maintain about a 130 pound weight loss, with my weight being anywhere between 185 and 190 on any given day.  I’ve maintained in that range for almost a year now, and I’m pretty sure the lifestyle changes I made are now permanent.  So it can be done!

The photos here are from a true bucket list item of mine!  Amelia Island, Florida is one of the few places left in the U.S. where you can go horseback riding on the beach.  We’ve been going down there since I was a kid, but I always exceeded the weight limit for the ride.  This past summer, I finally did it.  My horse’s name was Sky (fitting given how much I love sky blue, flight, etc.), and it was absolutely amazing!  Part of the thrill was shopping for a new shirt for the ride, and finding that this size MEDIUM fit me perfectly!!!  Depending on the shirt now, I’m either in a medium or a large; a far cry from the 3x I wore back in the day.  I was going for a beach cowboy look, and when I tried the shirt on and asked my mom if I had gotten it right, she told me, “Yes, definitely!  A GAY beach cowboy!”  If the shoe fits, I guess…  🙂  I love my mom.   Checkout my friends at Kelly Seahorse Ranch if you’d like to go for a beach ride, too.

So why would I come back to this blog today, after more than a year away, to give this update?  Well I had an experience today that

Chad and Sky

A bucket list item crossed off the list! Horseback riding on the beach at Amelia Island

reminded me that I still have a few things to say, even if I have been maintaining this weight loss for a while now.  This morning, I ran across a guy I went out on a date with a few years ago.  At the time, I had lost probably 65 or 70 pounds, and with the 60 or 65 pounds I’ve lost since then I know my appearance has changed pretty dramatically.  This guy, after our date, wasn’t rude, but clearly wasn’t really interested in a second date.  When I said hello today, he didn’t recognize me.  I told him who I was, and he couldn’t have been friendlier.  And all of a sudden, after quite a bit of trying on my part after our first date, to no avail, he was suggesting going out again, telling me how wonderful I looked and how proud of myself I should be, etc.

So here’s the thing – he’s not a bad guy, and I’m not even faulting him. We’re all either attracted to people or not for a whole variety of reasons, physical and otherwise.  I get that.  His renewed interest today was flattering, but also showed me he may be a little bit superficial for my taste.  Again, I’m not faulting him, and that’s not why I’m posting.  What the experience did for me, however, was to get me thinking about how people treat me now versus when I was obese.

When I weighed 315 pounds, I was almost invisible.  I could walk into a store and

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100 Pounds – Such a Tease…

February 2, 2013 2 comments
Looking into the distance - pondering how CLOSE I am to that 100 pound mark! :-)

Looking into the distance – pondering how CLOSE I am to that 100 pound mark! 🙂

Well yesterday was weekly weigh-in day, and I posted a loss, albeit a small one, from last week.  I weighed in at 217.4 pounds yesterday.  That’s down .4 pounds from last week, and still leaves me 2.4 elusive pounds shy of the century mark and losing 100 pounds!  I can taste that victory, and yes, it’s a measly couple of pounds, but the psychological significance of having lost 100 pounds is really huge.   I remember when I first started this journey a few years ago, I’d watch the people on the Today show, or read the success stories in the Atlanta Journal-Constitution who had lost 100 pounds, and for the first time, I thought, “They’re no different than me.  I can do this, too!”

And I almost have achieved that goal!  A. L. M. O. S. T…..  I was kind of disappointed this week because I did really well with exercise again for the first time in a long time, and I was good with my food.  My nutritionist reminded me yesterday when I told her rather disappointedly about my small loss that when you first begin exercise (which for all intents and purposes, this week was a restart), your muscles retain water, and the loss may not come immediately.  So busting through this plateau will take a little bit yet.

What’s keeping me going until I hit this huge milestone along my road to a final goal weight are the changes I’ve undergone.  Health, energy, and petty as it may seem, appearance.  I actually really like the way I look now!  I got a haircut this morning and snapped a photo with my phone today to see it from the side (see above).  A few years (or even a few months) ago, a side shot of my face/head would’ve been something that made me cringe and reflexively delete the photo.  But when I saw this one, I had to stop for a minute.  It didn’t even look like me!  I didn’t have a ridiculous double (or triple chin), there was no fat roll on the back of my head, and damn if I didn’t even see some of the muscles/tendons in my neck!  I actually thought I looked…well…kinda cute!  So that satisfaction – knowing I’ve changed my life for the better – that’s what’s going to propel me through until I’ve lost 100 pounds (hopefully very soon!), and then past that, to get below 200 pounds, and ultimately to reach a good final goal weight and maintain it with a healthy lifestyle that never stops.

Ending the Year by Closing a Chapter

December 31, 2012 Comments off
My "too big" wardrobe - ready for donation to a charity helping Atlanta's LGBT youth.

My “too big” wardrobe – ready for donation to a charity helping Atlanta’s LGBT youth.

Today was the greatest day yet of this weight loss journey.  To begin, I weighed this morning, as I do everyday, and I was at my lowest weight yet of my adult life: 221.8 pounds.  A 93+ pound loss from my highest weight of about 315!!!  It’s not an “official” Friday weigh-in for me, but I’ll take it.  So I decided that as I finish up my holiday vacation from work, I’d use part of the day to do something I’ve known for a while now that I should do – clean out my closet and dresser.

I knew I needed to do this for a couple of reasons.  First, I needed to get the clothes that I wore t my higher weights out of my house.  As long as they’re available to me, there is a safety net of sorts in my mind.  The idea that if I were to balloon back up to a higher weight, at least it wouldn’t require great expense, as I’d have a built-in wardrobe to fall back on.  This…is incredibly flawed thinking.  Getting rid of that safety net of “fat clothes” is an acknowledgement and proclamation to yourself that you HAVE changed your life, and that change is here to stay.  NO TURNING BACK!

The other reason I needed to do this is that I had a ton of perfectly good, and actually really nice, clothes that were going unused.  There are plenty of people out there who are on hard times for one reason or another that could be putting these clothes to use as opposed to having them hang in my closet as an unhealthy mental block to my total reconstruction.  As I began trying everything on and sorting everything in piles of what to donate and what to keep, I was overtaken with a completely irrational fear.  What if I were to lose my job/get sick/otherwise fall on hard times and end up homeless?  I might need these clothes, if for no other reason than to use as blankets to keep myself alive when I would undoubtedly be living in a cardboard box under the interstate with all my belongings in a hijacked shopping cart!

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Top 10 Body Changes to Get Me Through the Holidays

December 29, 2012 Comments off

So I have a couple of weeks of catching up to do with regards to reporting my weigh-ins.  In order to do it, I’ve returned to the bestest coffee shop in all the land, which I’ve often blogged from and about before.  Ground zero for my studying for the bar exam (and hence making a major career change), coming out of the closet, and various other life events.  I couldn’t take a week’s vacation and note spend some time here!  The news is good overall, and I’m proud of getting through the holidays without a complete debacle or meltdown of efforts.  In fact, the way I’ve been handling this year’s holidays makes me think that maybe, just maybe, I’ve finally made the switch in my head from being on a diet/eating plan/program to living a healthier lifestyle.

All that said, the weeks surrounding Christmas have not been a time for continued weight loss, and perhaps that’s not what I should have expected this time of year.  On the Friday before Christmas, I weighed in at Read more…

Weekly weigh in – a holiday loss!

December 20, 2012 Comments off

Among the hustle and bustle of the holidays, this week has gotten away from me! I weigh in again tomorrow, and I still haven’t posted my weigh in from last week. So here it is, last week I weighed in at 222.7!!! That’s 1.1 pounds down from the week before, and that’s even including my weekend in NYC!

I’ll write a longer post about my weigh in tomorrow before we get to Christmas – there’s a lot to share, including shopping for new clothes and resisting holiday treats… Enjoy this season!

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Celebrating Victories – Big Apple Style…

December 12, 2012 1 comment
2012 Rockefeller Center Tree

2012 Rockefeller Center Tree

This past weekend, I took the trip I’ve been talking about and anticipating for months – a trip to New York to see Cyndi Lauper and friends in a holiday concert to benefit homeless lesbian, gay, bisexual, and transgendered youth.  It.  Was.  Amazing.  And I’ll tell you all about it, but first of all, the trip started as I left home for work on Friday morning, and weighing in that morning was a great way to kick off a weekend of traveling!  I weighed in at 223.8, a FIVE POUND loss from the prior week!!!  That’s a 34.8 pound weight loss since July, and about 91 pounds down from my highest weight a few years back!!!  This is the lightest I’ve ever been as an adult.  It’s really pretty amazing.  I’m beginning to really like my body, and see myself as sexy and attractive!  That’s huge progress for me, as viewing yourself as a normal size person takes a lot of mental work!  It’s been a shift that’s happened over time, along with confidence being built up in other areas of my life, as well.  Which leads me back to New York… Read more…

Minor Setbacks :-/ and Lentil Soup :-)

December 2, 2012 1 comment
French Lentil Soup with Multi-Grain French Bread and Steamed Green Beans

French Lentil Soup with Multi-Grain French Bread and Steamed Green Beans

My weigh-in this past Friday was my first post-Thanksgiving, and it didn’t go quite how I would’ve liked.  I didn’t gain a ridiculous amount of weight, but I did gain.  I weighed in at 228.8 pounds on Friday, up 1.7 pounds from my last weigh in on Thanksgiving morning.  Honestly, it’s not that bad.  I had hoped to keep my weight steady, and maybe even post a modest loss, but gaining less than 2 pounds and staying below 230 really isn’t terrible.  It’s no excuse, but I also wrenched my back on the Friday after Thanksgiving, which hindered my exercise going forward.  I went for a walk today for the first time since last Saturday, and I hated not being able to jog, and the fact that my back hurt when I finished.  This too shall pass, though!

I should really be doubling down on nutrition, with exercise being problematic right now, but this weekend wasn’t great with that either.  I didn’t binge or eat too much or anything like that.  I just didn’t make the most clean choices.  A new relationship ended, I got a migraine headache, and I just wasn’t as careful with my food as I should be.  I went for Chinese last night (yeah – I had an eggroll…), and a greasy spoon today after church for eggs, bacon, hashbrowns, and a pancake.  Portions were modest, but still…  So this afternoon and evening I tried to get clean with my eating again.  My snack was a banana and pecans, and my dinner?  Scratch made lentil soup…mmmmmmm…  🙂

I’ve mentioned Rachel Brandeis, my dietitian, here before.  She is all kinds of awesome, and I honestly don’t know where I’d be without her.  Scratch that – I do know where I’d be.  Either a) two years post bariatric surgery and possibly still not knowing how to eat, or b) dead or nearly dead.  I’m so glad I ended up doing all this without surgery, and just by learning to eat right and exercise!  Anyway, click Rachel’s name above to visit her website and get her help if you’re an Atlanta local.  I promise you won’t regret it.  Even if you don’t feel like you need a consult, you can look her up and follow her on Facebook for great tips and recipes.

Facebook is where Rachel linked to this recipe on Epicurious.com for French Lentil Soup that intrigued me.  It’s so simple.  I really wasn’t sure it would taste that good, but Read more…